Work is home, home is work; I can’t distinguish anymore

I’m exhausted.

And when I feel this way I ask myself why and proceed to question my reason with the question “why” for a total of five times in attempt to get to the deeper root of the issue (yes,we do lie to ourselves fairly thickly so it’s important to have a ritual to uncover these narratives). So when I began with “I’m exhausted”- “why” , five why’s later I understood where I currently am.

My entire life, every single one of my “roles” are all urgently responding to COVID-19. To add to this weight, all of my usual respites are not available for me.

As an educator, my current, virtual 8am-5pm lucky-to-have-a-break-in-between, have made-food-in-six-minutes and attempted to not-eat-on-camera have been filled with pressing responses and actions to mitigate learning loss for students. Education is in full-on, all hands on-deck response mode to this virus and it’s current impact on our daily work. I am in awe of all educators and their commitment.

In attempting to support school districts, educators have been weaving through the Cynefin framework. We travel between obvious, complicated, complex and chaotic issues and we are whole-heartedly trying to figure out how to best support communities, families, fellow educators, and ultimately all students.